zaini- my ramblings and crap

Assalaamu'alaikum(peace be upon YOU, my friend),


This livejournal has reached the end of its lifespan. byebye zaini_c! haha.

BUTTT!!







Ill be opening another LJ, ahmadzainichia.livejournal.com. Friends, do add me up aite.

Good day all :DD

Was reading this entry about the recent natural disasters happening in the world...set me thinking a bit. I think i've always been somewhat always 'stuck in my own world' and am someone very much guilty of apathy. So yes, insyaAllah ill try to be more aware of things happening in the much bigger world around me and stop living in my own small world of me, myself, and I. Haha. I dont think im a selfish person, but i guess i can be very self....absorbed? I few people have sed to me before, 'yes the world revolves around zaini what' 'yelah everything is about you what'. Now i think about it, quite true.

STOP BEING LIKE THAT LAAA ZAINIIIII.

Haiyo if only SCDF allow NSmen to go for Ops Lionheart, i might be deployed to go myanmar ready doing rescue work. Haha but even if they did i dun think they'd pick me lah im such a blur sotong firefighter/rescuer. One tries one's best. Heh. But i would surely volunteer if they asked.

Was a pretty good day. Went to tuition azie's bro, den aft dat teman-ed her to polyclinic for a while. Aft dat went around bedok aimlessly for a while (as usual) den went to BK for erm, lunch?(as usual also. oh but got one time went PIZZA HUT, someone sposed to blanja me back. er-hrm. heh kidding)
Anyway, had a good talk. Actually, everytime i meet her i always feel stronger and more hopeful. I always learn something new. Especially today, her words really woke me up from my stupor. So i would just like to say THANK YOU to MISS NUR'AZIMAH BTE MUHAMMAD NOOR. haha. you dont need to get me a birthday present, cuz really, im happy enough with your friendship. really.

Oooookay, better stop before this is considered EMO also. haha. So yeah as usual after that went to mosque, and ta-dah! now im here typing this post. Ahah. Okaylah thats all. BYE

The REAL black suit spidey. Waaaaay cooler, i think.





Scarlet spiderman. Not peter parker. As in, the guy inside isnt peter parker. Fans of spiderman would know who he is. aha.






Spiderman.

My hero/idol as a child. You wouldn't imagine the number of hours spent at nite that i imagined/fantasized being you, swinging from webs, saving 'mary jane' and punishing bad guys while at the same time, cracking jokes. Haha. Now, that i said that, i think that was what made me start to like being the 'funny guy' so much, and cracking jokes and making the class laugh. I guess it was the only part of you i could emulate. Hmmmm. 

Oooooookay if you're asking why the sudden spidy post, its cuz, my brother and mum got me ORIGINAL Spiderman 3 vcd for my birthday! Haha. Suddenly reminded me of my spidey-worshipping(not literally, i only worship God) days. Haha. Would catch the tv series everyday, without fail. When the intro song and video started, i would be smiling widely already. Haha. Used to erm, 'collect' Spidey cards too. Inverted commas cuz i erm, actually only bought 8(they came in packs of eight). But my bestfren then(super bestfren, like did everything together kinda bestfren) from pri 2-4, Zakir, would buy a pack every week or so. So yeah, he had a lot of extra(repeated?) cards. So he wld give them to me. Haha. So in the end i had a grand total of 96 cards. 
AND wanna know what happened to em??































My mum found a card of THIS character(she's black cat by the way), and threw THE WHOLE, THE WHOLE COLLECTION AWAY!!!! Argh. Stil damn pissed about that seh. Some more got sentimental value man that collection, cuz my bestfren gave most of it. aiyohhh



Aaaaanyway. Yeah. So now you know something new about Mr. Ahmad Zaini Chia B M Z C. haha. Some lines from the movie,



"You start by doing the hardest thing; you forgive yourself"
-Aunt May to Peter Parker, when peter was telling her why he screwed up his relationship wih MJ

"No matter what the battle raging within us, we always have a choice, to do the right thing. My bestfriend taught me that"
-Peter Parker's thoughts, at Harry Osborne's funeral




Haha. Spiderman, my hero at the age of 10, and now at 20, still teaching me stuff.

As of today, i am an accomplished sciptwriter/director.

AHAHAHA.

nolah, but i did direct and co-write the script for my Perdaus event at Masjid Assakirin.

Alhamdulillah, it was only done with the help of Allah...things went quite okay tadi, Alhamdulillah again...feel quite happy. but also a bit sad now that the things over. gonna miss all the meetings, all the work we had to do for the project....hopefully, the participants took a learning point or two from our programme, insyaAllah.

Now, gotta look for something else to occupy my time.

Okay its not really my event, just helping a friend to advertise. so yes! highlights include-(subject to changes)


- Sleek
- Didicazli
- Variasi Performing Arts Group
- J.Da (originally Danielle)
- Sarkasi Said
- Iskandar Jalil
- Zubir Abdullah
- Akudeta Launch
- Charity Bazaar (There's RAMLEE BURGER. Yesyes. eat eat eat. and feel good about it cuz its for charity) (coupons are 5 bux each)


The 'malam pentas' or stage night will only be on the 16th march(if im not wrong), about 545(if im not wrong again). yeapyeap. 

So yes, if you're interested, and free, do come down yeap! My friends spent a lot of effort on this ar. serious.

Byebye

Assalamualaikum to all my muslim friends,

Hallo!!

erm, how to start.

basically, im part of a committee for my perdaus class project. we are orgainising a short programme for sec4 kids who are either going to their tertiary instutions this year or next year. its just a short programme, regarding the challenges/issues they might face to aqidah and being a muslim after secondary school, in the 3 main institutions;poly, ITE and JC. so currently, we are short of facilitators to run the programme, so yes, IM LOOKING FOR ANYONE INTERESTED TO HELPPP!!!!! i need representatives from all 3 institutions, especially ITE and JC. the event itself will be on the 15th march, about 4-7.30 at masjid assyakirin(its somewhere at the west side i think). if you're interested and free on that day, do please contact me at 82826500 okay?

thank you!

Like someone else? Mebbe love again? Mebbe. Get over? Mebbe but not fully. Forget? never in a thousand years. okay, i wun live a thousand years, but yeah you get the idea.

Your unique height, so perfect beside me.

The double scoop ice-cream cones. One scoop strawberry, one chocolate(chocolate freckles rather than sticky chewy, cuz i din like sticky chewy)

Coming to TM all smelly after working at Cik Usop's, with a curry puff, ribena pack and sometimes a bar of chocolate. Your smile and appreciation even though the stuff was so measly.

You coming all the way to Boon Lay, despite a tiring day at work at St. Hilda's. Going to the underground masjid at raffles place. You laughing at my lame opening the door with 'the force'

Fighting over hip-hop. Beyonce. Terrorism. Syiah.

Your warm hug. I would stand a stair lower.

Going from my house, to NTU, then yishun, then back home.

Watching transformers with my brother.

Going through proper reading of Al-Fatihah....

So many memories. But today...i let go. I let go.

Be happy k? And dun forget to ngaji, its very2 important cuz our solat is in Arab, and if its wrong, takut tak diterima...

I love you. Allah, give me strength...

Tuhan, kirimkanlah, aku, kekasih yang, baik hati,
Yang mencintai aku, apa adanya...





You know, you look beautiful when you're tired.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: teardrops on my guitar - taylor swift

hallo hallo hallo

Went for this talk by Ustad Aa Gym(he's indonesian) at Masjid Darul Aman last saturday. was really good, he's quite funny and i think can reach out to people of all ages. There's that whole controversy of him having a 2nd wife and hiding it from his 1st for about a year...and i guess it does make him lose a lot of credibility as an Ustad, cuz if he kept a secret from his wife for a whole year, wldnt that mean he lied to her for that long? but entahlah...someone told me, good advice should be a constant, and i guess...people make mistakes. even Ustads. but i think its gonna take him some time to get back the same faith from his listeners. 

ANYWAY.

The topic for that night was kinda like a motivational talk i guess. about how we as muslims shld have strong iman, have faith in God and be a good Hamba to Him. whats hamba in english ah...i think its sposed to be servant but, we dont really serve God do we? as in...He doesnt need any serving, He is all-powerful. so yea, ill stick to hamba.haha.

The heart is important to a person(not the organ, the...heart la!) cuz, there is the hadith which goes something like 'in man is a piece of meat, if that piece of meat is good, then the whole person will be good, and if that piece of meat is bad, then the whole person will be bad.'(this isnt the hadith word for word, just the gist of it) this piece of meat is the heart of course. sorry lah if it sounds wrong, my malay-english translation not very good. so yea, having a peaceful, good, sound heart is important. okay, so the five steps are:

1.Tanamkan tekad kuat bahawa Allah lah Tuhan yang menjadikan kita, memberi kita rezeki dan segala yang ada pada kita, dan kita adalah hambaNya.
-this is important, cuz if this is imprinted strongly in us, we cld never do dosa or maksiat to Allah.

2.Jauhkan diri dari dosa dan maksiat
-every sin we commit, causes our heart to darken just a bit. with more and more sin, our heart will slowly become black, and it will be hard for us to 'cure' it(hati jadi tertutup). This is true, really, i bet everyone experiences it. its that dark feeling inside you, everytime you commit a sin knowingly.

3.Banyak bertaubat
-everyone, EVERYONE commits sin, except nabi dan rasul. if im not wrong, the only one considered maksum is Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.. and EVEN then, he still istirghfar 100 times a day. so of course, we who commit so much sin must taubat even more!

4.Sempurnakan taat
-basically, we perfect our 'ketaatan' towards Allah. like for example, prefecting our prayers, trying as far as possible to get 100% khusyuk in prayer.

5.Sebarkan manfaat
-basically, do good for everyone around you. theres a hadith i read today about a person who asked Rasulullah S.A.W. 'what kind of Islam is good?' and the Prophet S.A.W. replied 'To feed(the hungry) and greet those whom you knows and whom you do not know".
so yeah, doing good for others is a very Good ibadah which helps to cleanse your heart a lot. get a lot of pahala too.

Yeapp thats is. 5 steps to having a clean, pure, peaceful heart. I thot about it though, and id er like to add in one more. dunnolah if its good, but to me, its quite important to.so, yea,

6.Be ikhlas in all that you do. Everything you do, do it only for Allah, to please him and untuk mendapat redha dariNya.
-i think this is important, cuz sometimes, if we do a 100 good deeds, but we dun do it for Allah, it will be all for naught. and it doesnt just apply to good deeds. it applies to, basically all that you DO...like for example, wanting to be a good muslim is good, but make sure you do it ALL for Allah, to be a good hamba to Him as HE has instructed us to. not for things like wanting your girlfriend to respect you or whatnot. but sometimes, these feelings come; its only human nature, to want to be respected and loved by your loved one. but i guess the main thing is everytime it happens, we have re-assess our objectives again, and try to do things ONLY for Allah.

Okaylah, thats about it. hope this has been useful. If i gave any wrong info in this blog, please forgive me, i am only human :)

Hanya Allah yang maha mengetahui.(WallahuA'lam)